May 2012
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30 Day Challenge - Day 20
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
I’m going to take this to mean higher education.
Honestly, I don’t think having attended college makes one better than someone who hasn’t. I give major kudos to folks who stick it out for years to get a degree in something they enjoy, but I also give the same kudos to folks who work their asses off in the workforce or pursing...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 19
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
My parents are dead, so…
Really though, kids should respect their parents, obviously, because everyone should be respected in general. This is a question of how you define respect though. If that means never questioning anything and blindly following the belief systems of your parents (or anyone else), then I am guilty of being disrespectful.
I was...
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vivaelrevolucion asked: Hi, Roxie! I recently watched a documentary about "bug chasing" and "gift giving" and while the entire documentary was about it, i'm wondering how common that really is. Lots of people say, "no one asks for HIV" but in reality there is a subculture who feel like it would be better to have it and manage it than live in fear of contracting it and others who are...
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Anonymous asked: Hi Roxie, i'm currently 17 years old and I found out my father has HIV in the winter of 2010. He has had it for my entire life, and it's the reason why I don't have any siblings. Now that my mom decided to tell me of his condition, I feel like I could never get it out of my head. I've spoken with doctors, my mother and read the internet and I am well educated with HIV and how...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 18
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
This is a very vague question, now isn’t it?
Spiritually, I am an eclectic Wiccan. I have been for the last 13 or so years, but only within the last year or so have I felt comfortable sharing that part of my life with others. I firmly believe that spirituality/religion should be an intensely private thing. I don’t feel the need to share how I celebrate Deity...
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Wardrobe Woes
One of the worst things about being uncomfortable in my body is trying to find something to wear that I feel the least uncomfortable in. =\
I have to go to my cousin’s birthday party tomorrow (er, today), so I just spent an hour trying to pick out something. Not that I have a lot to choose from because I pretty much live in workout/pajama pants, JD’s oversized t-shirts, and tank...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 17
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Lows:
- Noni’s decline and then death.
- My friend of nearly a decade dumping me for reasons I still don’t understand.
- Lipodystrophy and all the bullshit that has come along with it.
- Being denied Egrifta.
Highs:
- Getting approved for Egrifta after reapplying.
- Writing my novel.
- My brother moving in with us.
- Starting...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 16
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
I’m gonna make this short and quickly get to something else because mainstream music is one of the things I could not possibly care less about in the whole wide world. If you remember my post from Day 11 it’s clear that I don’t listen to any “mainstream music”. In fact, I barely listen to any music at all, so I am...
coffee-in-the-autumn-rain asked: :D
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30 Day Challenge - Day 15
Day 15 - Your favourite tumblrs.
Oh man, there are so many. I spend entirely too much time scrolling through my dashboard because I follow so many awesome blogs. I’ll try to narrow it down to 10 blogs here.
coffee-in-the-autumn-rain because she’s cool as hell. =]
D’Arcy the Flying Hedgehog. Enough said.
octopuussgarden because it’s my friend Elijah and he’s...
New Theme!
I apologize for the chaos if you visited my blog within the last couple of hours. I decided it was time for a new look around here!
I hope you like it.
Edited to add: I realize now that there are a few glitches I need to correct (mainly on photo posts), so I will have those done ASAP. But now it’s time for sleeps.
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30 Day Challenge - Day 14
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
I don’t have very many vivid memories of my childhood before I was 8 or so years old. The ones I do have are very convoluted; almost like memories of a dream.
I guess the one that would count as my earliest memory is back before my brother was born. We lived in a trailer park, and right outside our trailer grew wild horseradish and rhubarb. I remember...
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dinosaurjam asked: I totally want to live in San Francisco someday too, but I have the same hesitation - no hedgehogs! And I'm determined that once I'm at a place in my life where I'm able to care for a hedgie, I'll proceed to have hedgie-babies the rest of my life. So.
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theprufrockofnow asked: I just read your post about your HIV status where you talk about your childhood experiences. Thank you for being so open with people about your status. Not only do you share with us the heart-breaking history, you also show that you're a real person. It's refreshing. :-)
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Progress?
I weighed myself today for the first time in weeks, and I’ve lost nearly 8lbs since starting Egrifta.
I want to get excited about it, but really I’m just scared that it’s all a coincidence and that the Egrifta isn’t working for me. =\
I keel telling myself that I haven’t been able to lose even a single pound since developing lipodystrophy, and I haven’t...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 13
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
It would be my dream to live in San Francisco. I have been twice, and I absolutely love that city. It has the perfect weather for me, is beautiful, and the people are awesome. The only problem with living in California though is that hedgehogs are illegal, and I don’t think I could part with my hedgies. =[
I also really miss living in the...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 12
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Today was not an interesting day, and since it’s currently only about half over for me since I’m most active at night I will include what I will do before hitting the sheets at about 6AM.
Woke up.
Checked my email, tweets, etc.
Seasoned steaks, put them in marinade, and popped them in the fridge.
Took a shower, got dressed, brushed teeth, did...
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Anonymous asked: My boyfriend had unprotected sex with a girl who he KNOWS has HIV. She claims he gave her chlamydia. I made my boyfriend wait 3 months then go get tested. He came back negative for everything exept chlamydia. I waited an additional month & went & got tested myself & was negative for everything, Thank God. But are my results accurate enough? She was born with HIV & she's on...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 11
Day 11 - Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
I don’t have an iPod, so I’ll use my Amazon Cloud Player.
String Quartet No. 4 in C Minor by Emperor String Quartet
Chopin: Fantaisie - Impromptu Op. post. in C sharp minor by Leon McCawley
Sonata No. 3 in A Major for Cello and Piano by Sergei Slovachevsky and Igor Uryash
Hide and Seek by Kevin Kern
Brahms:...
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Anonymous asked: Seeing you answer all those questions about how your family got the virus, made me realize just how little people actually know about it.. I thought that, by now, people would know that it's not just a sex-thing but that you can also get it from a blood transfusion (which is why - at least in Germany..I'm not sure about other countries - they make you get an HIV test after you received...
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Anonymous asked: sorry if this is too personal but if your parents were married and faithful, how did they get hiv?
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Anonymous asked: why didn't your mom take medication while she was pregnant to prevent you from getting hiv? how did your brother not get it, but you did?
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30 Day Challenge - Day 10
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
I’m one of the lucky ones. My first love, first kiss, first everything is still my partner. (That’s not to say I haven’t had others, because JD and I did have a period, years ago, when we broke up and pursued other things/people, but we eventually found our way back to one another. And I also had experiences as a kid that were...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 9
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Ugh, that question is so awfully worded. *gag*
Really though, didn’t I answer this on Day 2?
Instead, here’s a cute photo of me with a giant hedgehog.
And this is what Thaddeus thinks about everything, but especially that badly worded question.
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30 Day Challenge - Day 8
This is gonna be short because my Internet had been down for 3 hours and I am doing this from my phone.
Day 08 - A moment when you felt the most satisfied with your life.
When I’m writing. Every time I’m writing.
It’s when I feel the most alive, the most accomplished, and the closest to forces greater than myself. All of the pain, stress, worry, inadequacy - all of...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 7
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
I’m a Scorpio, and yes, I think I actually fit my sign pretty well aside from the “only being out for myself” stuff, because believe it or not, I have a huge capacity for empathy. In fact, I have been reading a lot about being an empath, and it makes a lot of sense to me, but that’s for another post.
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30 Day Challenge - Day 6
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
I don’t know if there are 30 interesting things about me, but I’ve gained a lot of new followers recently, so I’ll use this to give you a little bit about my background and my life. Interesting, I can’t promise. =]
I was born HIV+.
I have a younger brother (4 years) who is HIV negative.
Both of my parents died of...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 5
Before I get to the challenge, I finally spoke with my doctor today about my blood work and such.
My counts are still fabulous, so yay times a million!
My cholesterol is still high, but it’s gone down by about 20 points, so hopefully by continuing to take fish oil and with a better diet (heh) I will continue to see improvement. She said that my age and sex are in my favor when it comes...
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Quick Egrifta Update
I had a really good week last week. I felt better about my appearance, and like I was really starting to see a reduction in the fat deposits. I don’t know what’s going on, but I’m feeling much worse this week.
I feel grosser than I’ve ever felt - fatter, more self conscious, and like I took a thousand steps back.
I struggle so hard with accepting the way I look. I...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 4
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Again, do whatever you want.
I have a lot of qualms with organized religion, but mostly I think people need to do what makes them feel fulfilled, peaceful, and full of joy. It doesn’t matter what spiritual path that is.
I think that Deity shows itself to us all in a unique and individual way, whether that be through organized faith, a solitary path,...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 3
A few things before I get to the challenge.
First, I’d like to say Happy Mother’s Day to all you mommies, be that to human kiddos or fur/feathered/scaled/quilled/whatever kiddos. I hope you had a great time.
And happy birthday to my silly furchild, Throckmorton. He turned 5 today and that makes me sad. I never want him to get old because I want him to be my babyson for forever...
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30 Day Challenge - Day 2
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Hopefully somewhere with a few published books under my belt. I hope to be creating, and have created, works that touch people. I hope to have realized my life’s goal.
I also hope to be healthy. I always hope that one day there will be a cure for HIV, but failing that, I hope to be just as healthy or more so than I am now. I hope to have had...
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Wordsmith
When I am writing,
I no longer care that I am not beautiful.
That my body is flabby, my thighs rippled,
or that my chin doubles when I look down.
I forget that my body is weakened by illness,
and that my mind often races with voices
that are not always my own.
I never feel loneliness,
for I have many friends and a supportive family
in the characters I’ve created.
I have no...
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30 Day Challenge →
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Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about…
I’m going to do this because I just do not seem to be able...
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“The act of writing itself is done in secret, like masturbation - oh, I have one...”
– from Stephen King’s The Body.
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Editing, Rewriting, Formatting.
Editing, rewriting, formatting. Editing, rewriting, formatting.
Do I even remember a day when writing this novel was fun?
It will all be worth it in the end.